Recently, I got a call from Chicka. She asked me if I’d ever done a Boudoir photo shoot. Without a second thought, I told her no. It was pretty clear from our phone call that she was interested, but very unsure about doing one, which sort of surprises me, as Chick’s reservations were like the mirror image of my own. (This is so mind-blowing as Chicka is…like a size 00).
First, we discussed body image issues. I won’t give specifics about Chicka’s concerns except to say that she has them. Of course, I have those, too. Even after a 35 lb weight loss, I still have some reservations about doing a photo shoot in lingerie. I’ve seen enough Playboy to know that I sincerely do not fit the ideal of a woman who does photos in her intimates. However, I’ve also been around the plus community long enough to know that there are very beautiful plus-size women who do this for a living.
After my conversation with Chicka ended, I got to thinking about this – kind of lot. Some time ago, I read Whitney Way Thore’s book, “I Do It with the Lights On,” where she talks about her own session and I just kept thinking that maybe I could do it. (Whitney, you definitely inspired me, girl!)
During our recent snow day, I asked The Dane what he thought. Next thing I knew, we were on our way to doing our first shoot (we did a couple of others – they were in the snow and it was COLD).
When we were done, I downloaded the photos to review. It has taken me a few weeks to get up the courage to post them as a blog.
Along with the regular reservations about doing this sort of shoot, I had some reservations about how these would turn out due to the lighting (we’re still working with this). I did what I do when I’m unsure about photos that we take…I put them away and then waited a while to go back and look at them. I discovered that I liked them a whole lot more.
There were a couple of really good lessons I gained from doing this shoot. The first thing, which was totally unexpected, was that it really was a freeing feeling. After so many reservations – not young enough, not sexy enough, maybe don’t have the right thing to wear – I discovered that none of that mattered. This particular shoot is really about how far I have traveled in the fat lane. I started out as a girl who didn’t really understand or accept my body and have now come along this journey to the point where I am celebrating my curves. Sure, I’m not where I hope to be someday, but I really am okay with where I am right now.
The other thing that was really fun was The Dane’s response (I don’t mean that), but he seemed to genuinely enjoy looking at these photos and complimenting how they turned out, especially because he knew how uncomfortable I was in the beginning and how awkward I was to start with. It’s funny, he said to me, “Babe, film is cheap nowadays, we’ll just keep going until you feel more comfortable with it.” After taking about twenty of them, I think I started to just have fun with it.
A photo shoot like this may not be for everyone, but if you are thinking of doing one and just need a little nudge to get you there, I sincerely want you to know that it’s worth it!
Robe and Gown – Madison Intimates (old)